Going Through a Depression Phase
I have really tried to stay positive about all that’s been happening to me over the last year or so, but I’m not succeeding very well right now. When I went to my Neurologist last time we made a point of telling him that I was crying extremely easily over just about everything. He had a name for it, but it was a mile long, and I forgot what it was. Since he said he didn’t want to change any medicines until after I’ve had the sleep study, there didn’t seem to be any point in pursuing it, as long as we’ve told him about it.
We’ve been waiting to get the garage we’re having built finished. We waited an extra month for the siding and roofing to be special ordered to match the house. Neither one of them is a match – right color, but wrong shapes. And we’re stuck with them. That set me into quite a blue funk for the last few days, but I’m getting over that. It’s just a garage. Sometimes it’s hard to keep perspective about things like that.
We’re still dealing with estate business, so that doesn’t help with my state of mind right now, either.
I started back on the glycerin suppositories today, as I have gradually had more and more trouble with bowels again. Just as before, there’s nothing that would make me consider myself to be constipated, but my muscles just don’t push hard enough. They took the Zelnorm off the market that dealt with that problem for me before. So I’m planning on going back on the Bowel Retraining regimen.
So, with the insomnia continuing, the bowel situation flaring up again, and just generally too much going on, I’ve had better days.
Having so many downs myself so I understand the crying at the “drop of a hat”. It can’t help that you have other physical health problems to contend with. Sending a {{HUG}}
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a patient myself reading the holy quran muslim faith helps, a prayer,’ oh my god distress has touched me, and you are the most merciful of the merciful ones’ verse 21;83 surat anbaya holy quran
I took time this morning to skim through your posts on Million Stories, Ruth. Looks like we’ve both been doing our share of unexpected blubbering lately. Glad to see some of your frustrating dealings with your government money people are finally getting straightened out.
{{HUGS}} to you, too!!
Haroon, thank you for stopping by. I’m going to add you to my side bar. I went to read your blog, but you really don’t have enough there to tell me much about your situation. I look forward to future posts.
As for dependence on God, or Allah in your case, I know I could not get through any of this with any grace at all, if it were not for the strength I gain from my own personal walk with the LORD.
Mark 9:22-24 (King James Version)
22And ofttimes it hath cast him into the fire, and into the waters, to destroy him: but if thou canst do any thing, have compassion on us, and help us.
23Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.
24And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.
Sorry to hear about the depression. I lived with it for many years and took the drugs the GP gave me which made the situation worse and with my addictive personality were very dangerous.
Thank goodness I dropped the GP and went for alternative treatment which got rid of it in a few months after years of hell and theraphy.
Body Talk is brilliant and having no medication involved will not clash with the medication you take for Parkinsons. The top US Universities are amazed at what is being helped with it, both physical and mental. They do have a website.
Hopefully things will improve for you.
DB, I reread the previous post and saw the part about your mother. Having gone through that with her has to compound the feelings you are having. I hope the depression lifts a bit. I’m sorry.
Thanks for your constant support, Shelia. Yes, having watched my Mama go through all that, and knowing it was part of her Parkinson’s, is making it worse.
I do think the worst of the blue funk is lifting, though. It really does help to vent sometimes!!
Thanks for the tip about BodyTalk, Jackie. I’ve never heard of that before. I did a quick skim of several websites and will be back to read more thoroughly.