This makes the fourth different style of mask I’ve tried, if you include the nasal pillow they put on me in the Sleep Study that I almost went hysterical over. And, this is the last one they have for me to try. So, it’s get used to this one, or I’m just not going to be able to do it. The only other chin strap they had was just not what I had in mind, and I could tell it wouldn’t work. And, I would have to have paid for a change on that, unlike the mask itself. I have 30 days to decide if I can tolerate this mask.
I had initially categorically turned down even trying on the full mask, which is what I am trying now. At that time, I was still adjusting to the whole idea of it, and the thought of having nose and mouth covered up was just too claustrophobic sounding to me. Now, as I have gotten used to having this claw on my face, it seemed like it was worth trying, as a last resort. It does solve the mouth breathing problem, without having to wear anything extra. And that’s a big plus. It leaks though, as I have no chin, and a pug nose, with nothing for it to hold onto. I did sleep longer last night than most nights, so that’s a positive sign in the right direction. When I woke up at 2:30 to go to the bathroom, though, I couldn’t get it to stop leaking cold air down my neck. By the time I readjusted it somewhat, I was wide awake. I made myself stay there until almost 3:30, though, figuring it would help me adjust to it, even if I were not asleep.
This whole frustrating experience has really been a test of my patience and commitment to see this thing through. Things have always come pretty easy for me, if I really wanted to learn how to do something. I’m not used to having to work so hard to adjust to something new, so this has been a real challenge. DH says when I get mad at the straps I look like I’m about to have a conniption, flailing at my face and yanking the straps off. ROTFL But it’s no laughing matter at the time. I have a new appreciation for students of mine over the years who would get so frustrated when they didn’t understand the math I was trying to help them with. A pity that I hadn’t had an experience like that then, so I could have been more empathetic.
My Sleep Apnea is only mild, according to the doctor, so it’s not like I’m going to die in the night if I don’t use the machine. But, he wants me to use it, because he feels it will help with my PD symptoms, particularly the brain fog and fatigue. I would love to get out of this haze and have more energy, so I’m trying, really trying to make this work.
I would appreciate your prayers and good thoughts to help me be comfortable with it, as I continue to pray for this each day.